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From Stumbling Blocks to Building Blocks

May 15, 2018 by Women of Shakopee

Letters from inside - motherhood behind bars"Letters from Inside" is a blog series featuring incarcerated women at Minnesota Correctional Facility–Shakopee, where Prison Fellowship® runs one of its Prison Fellowship Academy™ sites. Hear from women who are not only serving time for crimes but are now trying to live their lives for Jesus behind bars.

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FROM STUMBLING BLOCKS TO BUILDING BLOCKS: HOW CHRIST HAS TRANSFORMED SUSAN'S LIFE

By Susan of Shakopee

When I was out [of prison] in my addiction, I would run hard the month of May. I justified my actions by telling myself it was my birthday month. But the reality of it is that Mother's Day is right after my birthday. That was a day that I just wanted to either sleep through or have it come and go fast so I didn't have to feel.

OPENING A WOUND

Mother's Day was always like opening a wound and putting salt in it for me. You see, my mother was an addict, and I followed in her footsteps, as they say. I blamed her for everything that went wrong in my life. I mean, why not? She was a heroin junkie that caught HIV. At 11 years old, I had to take care of a parent when I should have been the child.

I was mad for so long. Too long. You see, my mom died when she was only 40, and I was 21 and pregnant with my first child. And I went off the rails. Blame, resentment, and anger fueled my addiction. My choices [ended up] putting me in and out of jails and prison. I was never a good mother.

But by God's grace and mercy, I can be now!

BUILDING BLOCKS OF TRANSFORMATION

The Prison Fellowship Academy changed my life. Finding God and who I am in Christ changed my life. I needed forgiveness not only for myself, but for my mother. I needed to open my eyes and come to the realization that my mother did the best she could fighting the demons she had. Daily, I thank God for the chance to feel the lightness in my heart for my mother. Even though she isn't here with me physically, I know God has her.

As for me, I'm learning how to be the mother I need to be. I'm not making up for lost time. I'm building a foundation with my children--one that is Christ-centered so that they can feel safe and secure in the fact that I'm not who I used to be. I'm growing into who God made me to be.

It will take some time, but Philippians 4:13 says, "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." And with [Christ] as my foundation, nothing can knock the relationships we are building with each other. We may have stumbling blocks along the way, but we will turn them into building blocks.

Susan

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